worry not about future

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

as human, kita tak lari dari rasa risau kan..lagi2 risau about our future..

 

know what? syaitan sangat nak kita risau about future..why? sebab that thing akan melalaikan kita, buatkan kita tak tidur malam fikir about that thing that belum pasti..buat kita tak khusyuk solat, buat kita tak jaga hubungan dengan Dia..

so, don't worry too much about future..to be curious is okay..but don't dwell yourself in never-ending worry..

siapa yang pegang future kita? Allah kan :) so why nak worry banyak2..Dia mesti tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita..

tak perlu question everything in this world..

"how will people say about this later"

"why me takde anak lagi"

"whats gonna happen next?"

"what if this what if that"

as our life, each of us, always and always be in His sight..Dia tahu apa yang terbaik for us..Dia tahu masa yang terbaik untuk bagi anything to us..even if you never spoke anything about your desire to anyone..He always knew :)

jangan letakkan diri kita dalam situasi yang kita menangkan the devil..he want us to be worried..

so that we question everything yang Allah dah aturkan untuk kita..so that kita tak bahagia dengan kehidupan kita sekarang..so that kita kufur nikmat untuk nikmat2 yang kita dah dapat..so that kita lupa, pemegang masa depan tu Dia :)

we have no control of our future..only He does :)

by putting yourself in a situation that you believe that you can control the future, you will only put yourself in complete mess..you will be worried for your whole life..you will begin to be an ungrateful person, an anxious one..and you will be negative of most of the things..this gonna be hard to control..and you will find it hard to be happy again..

"I will approach them from their front, their back, their right, their left and then You will find most of them ungrateful" - Al-A'raf 7:17

why not try to step back, take seat, keep calm, and appreciate the present moment?

its not our job to worry about the future..we never have any power to control it..its only Him who hold the future :) always, always have faith in Him..

never let the syaitan win..never let them make you pessimist about the future..and never let them turn you into negative people..

say good thing, think good thought..and everything will turn into good doa insyaAllah..

 

"if Allah is everything you have, you have everything you need"

xoxo,

yanie

stay positive but not toxic positive..how?

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

life full of up and down..tipula if cakap tak pernah ada problem kan..everyone ada their own problem..cuma depends on that person je macamana they handle things..

but after all, you need to concern about your mental health too right..

be positive..so that the negative part cant take over your mind and messed up everything..

but being positive doesnt means that you being toxic positive 🙅

know the differences of these two :)

to stay positive is good, really good..but while being positive thinker means that you still accept the negative part of this world..

while toxic positivity is at a stage in which you deny the negative part..

macamana tu?

contohnya macamni..as me also currently still a student, so i will give example on student side..

let say you have been in a difficult situation sebab you need to stay at home, dengan assignments banyak, online class somemore, your siblings not really helpful lagi, and you need to do chores in between class..and many more difficulties..

instead of trying to pamper yourself by saying "alaa orang lain lagi susah than this.." dan seumpamanya, try to replace it dengan "this gonna pass too..by time..insyaAllah.."

maksudnya, dont turn your back straight away from your current reality..face it, embrace, and adjust the possibilities..dont deny the negative part of life..

this thing not only applied to yourself..you can use this kind of positive thinking for others as well..

when someone come to you and burst into emotion, first thing first dont ask them to stop..instead, stay calm and wait for them to settle with their emotion..tak kisah la dia nak nangis ke, berucap panjang2 ke..jadi pendengar yang setia..sebab some people tak perlu nasihat pun from anyone..they just need some time from someone that they trust :)

and at that moment, you are the one that he/she trust..so jangan kecewakan dia :) be nice..

then later when they start to blame their situation and ask for your opinion, try to pamper them not by giving toxic positive thought..how?

 

don't say things like,

"alaa kau punya susah kira okay lagi..aku dulu lagi susah etc etc...kau kira untung la tu atleast kau................."

 

you will never pamper them..and it wont solve anything either..

instead, try to comfort them by saying,

"dunia ni ada positive and negative side..we need to look on both..and we can never deny the negative part..so, what you face currently might be the negative part..and you have the right untuk rasa apa yang kamu rasa sekarang..its hard..and if im at your place belum tentu dapat be like you are right now..you did well so far..and this thing will pass..kutip mana yang elok untuk move forward..not by sitting there and do nothing..acknowledge the hardness, and try to find the solution.."

"but how if the things not change at all even after sooo long of time?"

"it will..what did i said before about positive and negative?we have both in this world kan..so the positive one akan datang jugak nanti :) even lambat sikit pun :) take this as opportunity to grow up..mungkin your life is teaching and preparing you on how to face the future..nanti in the future you will become tougher and better person than you were yesterday siapa tahu kan..yang penting make move untuk solve and keluar from the difficulties..not just tunggu things to change.. "

be good..by not ignoring what people's feel..

be nice..by being a good listener..

but be logical too..by not denying that everything ada good and bad side..by not denying the negative feelings..by not teaching others to run from the facts..by staying with them through the hard time :)

help/ask them to seek help when they need to..bukan suruh diorang lari dari realiti..if certain problems tu perlu jumpa orang yang lagi arif, advice them to seek the help..jangan biar diorang terkial2 lari from the facts..dont sugarcoat everything..

.....

thats my 2 cents..

as this life is just like a garden..we have everything in there..the flowers that represents the happy moments..dry leaves that represents not-that-happy part..thorns of the flowers that represents the challenges we need to face, butterflies and birds that represents people around us..that will come and go as they like and we cant hold them on their feet to stay with us :) and the garden also has river..that represents ever-flow life lessons that we need everyday to keep us alive for tomorrow :)

everything is very important for us to have a beautiful life..we are the one responsible on how to decorate the garden :)

bayangkan if dunia ni full of positive or negative things je..tak balance, tak fun la life tu nanti kan..so kena ada dua2 baru balance :)

xoxo,

yanie

Allah uji sebab Dia sayang..kenapa?

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

 

 

 

"Allah uji sebab Dia sayang..macamana tu? kalau sayang kenapa uji? kenapa bagi rasa susah? tak boleh ke kalau bagi je terus nikmat tu?"

 

pernah tak dengar orang question macamtu? or, pernah tak sendiri terquestion macamtu?

 

tak salah pun nak question macamtu..sebab kita manusia, penuh dengan rasa ingin tahu kan :)

 

but, still...kenapa Allah uji kalau Dia sayang hamba-hambaNya?

 

for me, dia macamni..contohnya, awak doa something kat Dia..yes, He will grant it someday..but kenapa tak grant je terus? mintak nak kaya, dapat harta sekelip mata je, mintak nak kesabaran dapat rasa sabar dalam few minutes je, mintak nikmat makanan sedap terus bukak peti ais ada bersusun nikmat makanan dalam tu..senang kan macamtu..

tapi tak..Allah Maha Memberi, Maha Besar..Dia nak bagi lebih lagi daripada apa yang kita mintak..

kita doa nak kaya, Dia bagi ujian dengan rasa kurang dulu sebelum Dia bagi ganjaran kesenangan dunia..kenapa? supaya satu hari nanti bila Dia bagi kesenangan tu, kita akan dapat hargai and betul2 menikmati nikmat tu..at the same time sepanjang jalan kita nak dapat kesenangan tu Dia bagi ujian supaya sepanjang jalan tu kita dapat pahala sekali, bukan nikmat yang kita doa sebelum ni tu semata-mata..

 

ujian itu bukan untuk melemahkan..bahkan ujian itu sebenarnya untuk menaikkan lagi tingkat kita dalam kehidupan..

even dalam kehidupan biasa pun kita ada exam - UPSR, PMR, SPM..kenapa? apa pentingnya semua tu? untuk naikkan tingkat pembelajaran kita dari sekolah rendah ke sekolah menengah; dari sekolah menengah ke universiti dan sebagainya..dan markah setiap orang pun berbeza-beza kan..dari situ diasingkan lagi kita ke dalam kelompok genius, bijak dan perlukan lebih perhatian :)

sama konsepnya dengan ujian Allah..tapi ujian Allah tu lebih mendalam, lebih perlu dilihat secara terperinci..

 

"kita dah buat baik pun kenapa diuji lagi? dah solat, dah sedekah, dah buat semua amalan2 sunat, tapi kenapa diuji jugak?"

sebab mungkin Allah dah sediakan tempat untuk kita di syurga..tapi syurga tu kan ada banyak peringkat..so, mungkin Allah nak kita jadi penghuni dalam syurga tingkat atas2..maka Dia hadirkan ujian demi ujian untuk tinggikan lagi darjat kita..

kalau Dia tak bagi ujian extra kat kita, apa je yang boleh kita banggakan untuk jadi penghuni syurga atas2 tu?sama je la macamtu dengan penghuni syurga yang lain :)

maka, bersangka baiklah dengan Allah..Dia tidak menguji seseorang diluar kemampuan, tidak juga menguji tanpa sebab :)

thats why kita sebagai hamba yang kadang tak lari dari rasa ingin tahu perlu sentiasa cari jawapan dan hikmah di sebalik sesuatu..everything happen for a reason, kan? dan di sebalik sesuatu yang berlaku pada kita tu tersimpan sejuta hikmah yang kita mungkin tak nampak harini, esok atau bertahun lamanya :)

yang penting, sentiasa sangka baik dengan Allah :)

 

“Sungguh menakjubkan urusan seorang Mukmin. Segala perkara yang dialaminya sangat menakjubkan. Setiap takdir yang ditetapkan Allah bagi dirinya adalah kebaikan. Apabila kebaikan dialaminya, maka dia bersyukur dan hal itu merupakan kebaikan baginya. Dan apabila keburukan menimpanya, dia bersabar dan hal itu merupakan kebaikan baginya.” (Hadis Riwayat Muslim) 

xoxo,

yanie

Menghargai & Mensyukuri

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

nampak macam mudah kan?

hakikatnya, tak semua orang mampu untuk menghargai orang lain..

to say is easier than to be done :)

tak perlu tengok jauh-jauh..tengok diri sendiri, magnify jiwa sendiri pun dah cukup untuk unlisted moment yang kita kadangkala tak sedar yang kita tak menghargai sesuatu..

yes, jiwa muda, haruslah ada gelodak naik turun yang kadang-kadang kita sendiri tak mampu kawal..kita tak nak pun tak appreciate anything around us..tapi gelodak tu yang buat kita indirectly be so ungrateful..

paling mudah - kita kadang-kadang rasa Dia tak adil..sebab apa yang kita nak tak directly kita dapat..kita doa lain, kita dapat lain..tapi kita lupa untuk appreciate apa yang kita dapat..mungkin kita tak dapat apa yang kita nak, tapi dapat apa yang kita perlu..

kita as manusia tak lari dari terasa or felt annoyed dengan orang sekeliling kita..sampaila satu masa Allah letakkan jarak sebagai pemisah..waktu tu baru la sikit-sikit terkenang orang yang selalu kita rasa taknak pun wujud dalam lipatan hidup..

ofcourse la as a human ada certain waktu kita tak puas hati or tak setuju on others..its normal..but the next second after that feeling cepat2 buang rasa tak puas hati tu..

this ungrateful act indirectly make us become so selfish..kita tak rasa..but we are becoming one..as we always want thing to be better for our own good..

cuba dari hari ni tukar mindset and the way we appreciate things/ moment/ person..untuk ubah masa lalu kita tak mampu..tapi kita masih owner untuk our future unwritten story..make today as beginning of new books :)

 

 

"jadilah orang-orang yang wara', maka engkau akan menjadi hamba yang berbakti. 

jadilah orang yang qana'ah, maka engkau akan menjadi hamba yang paling bersyukur" 

- HR Ibnu Majah -

xoxo,

yanie

entering year 3 mbbs - what to prepare?

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

today my class habis awal..so sempatla jenguk blog kejap :D

 

 

few juniors tanya - bila masuk year 3, beza sangat ke dengan year 1,2?

a bit different kot i can say..tapi sebab kami punya year 3 begin with online class so takde apa sangat pun..

what to prepare before masuk year 3?

1) mindset 

- ubah mindset from preclinical to clinical :)

- in clinical year, just ada rotation je..but still lagi carry that 'fireworks' a bit..

- each rotation/posting, dah takde specific subject macam preclinical..now its time to apply..so in each rotation, u will be exposed to each diseases in detail..lagi fun la kot :D

 

2)ada berapa rotation?rotation apa?macamana?

- total for year 3 ada 4 rotations

- Surgery, Paediatrics, Internal Medicine, O&G

- rotation tu depends on faculty..nanti dah divide group etc nanti dapat la rotation masuk posting mana dulu smuatu :)

3) what to buy? ***most popular question ever**

- soalan ni ramai jugak tanya..actually first thing yang perlu ada is stethoscope and tendon hammer je - which we all already have since year one kan :) if not yet, boleh beli dua ni :)

- other things akan menyusul after dah masuk posting tu..tak perlu beli awal2 unless duit kepok2 tak tahu nak beli apa dah :D

 

 sini yanie list out things yang yanie beli for clinical years utk awal2..beli sikit2 slow2 pun takpe..tak perlu all at the same time :)

-->stethoscope (pakai yang beli from bms lagi je)

-->tendon hammer (also from bms years)

-->pentorch (ni pun sama from bms)

-->oxymeter

-->paeds kit (buat sndiri - ambik anakfrut punya)

-->tuning fork

-->pinard

-->neurokit

-->sphygmomanometer

-->suture kit

 

- but again, the main one is stethoscope & tendon hammer tu je..paeds kit prepare yang basic2 pn dah okay.. suture kit not really guna pun..tapi saja je beli sebab nak practice suture kat rumah..that one more to final year i think..

 

- and if kamu ada housemate yang ambik medic jugak, berbaik la dengan beliau..so that takdela all thingss kena beli..boleh pinjam certain2 things..

4) how about buku?

- TBH, yanie beli mostly buku2 untuk study/memorize easily je..macam short notes..not textbooks..

- for textbooks yanie pakai pdf version je..tak mampu nak beli each posting banyak2 buku..

- for me, list buku yang yanie beli:

 

-->Doctrina Perpetua (for 3 postings - surgery, paeds, obgyn)

-->Oxford Handbook of Clinical Medicine (IM)

- but again, those books don't treat them as textbooks..untuk mudah faham/hafal boleh la baca..but for further explanation etc still kena buka textbooks..

- other than that mostly yanie buat notes sendiri je..

 

- list textbooks yang yanie pakai:

 

-->Surgery<--

*Bailey & Love's Short Practice of Surgery

*Browse's Introduction to Symptoms & Signs of Surgical Diseases

*Compact Clinical Guide to Critical Care, Trauma, and Emergency Pain Management

-->Paediatrics<--

*Nelson Textbook of Paediatrics

*Illustrated Textbook of Paediatrics (Sunflower)

*Paediatric ECG Survival Guide

*Malaysian Paediatric Protocol

-->Internal Medicine<--

*Davidson's Principles & Practice of Medicine

*Harrison's Principles of Internal Medicine

*Making Sense of ECG

*ECG Interpretation Made Incredibly Easy

-->OBGYN<--

*O&G by Ten Teachers (favorite most Drs)

*DC Dutta (tapi this one buku lama..some Drs tak suka)

*O&G Today

*Williams Obstetrics

*Dewhurst's Textbook of O&G

buku2 tu berguna untuk seminar mostly..sebab if nak pakai for study tu macam all the time nak bukak tu susah jugak..untuk fahamkan mungkin ya..but not all the time..by time nanti jarang2 je bukak buku2 tu..better buat notes sendiri la..

setakat tu je kot dulu yanie mampu share..if anything nak tanya feel free to comment kat bawah :)

xoxo,

yanie

never judge

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

 

 

 

tahun 2020 ni tahun paling lama stay at home kan..so one of the hikmah is i can spend more time on my blog :)

so, about the title of the entry - never judge .

today tergerak to write about this topic..

some people suka judge orang based on superficial things that they see..and as for me, i don't favor that..

 

everytime i met with these kinda people, i will distract myself by tengok fon ke, buat2 macam tak dengar ke..sebab sometimes i don't know how to stop certain people from judging other people..tapi diri sendiri tak suka nak dengar pun benda tu..if yang tengah bercakap tu person yang me dekat/rapat boleh je nak tegur..but if not that close me pun still jaga air muka dia jugak..siapalah saya disitu untuk tiba2 tegur kan :)

 

"eh why dia tu dah tua2 pun still study.." 

"why si A tak kerja lagi.."

"why si B takde partner lagi.."

 

why this why that..and followed by answers from the one yang questions themselves..

 

"ni mesti sebab etc etc.."

hmm..why nak question everything?

 

Dari Abu Hurairah r.a, bahwasanya Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: “Jauhilah prasangka buruk, kerana prasangka buruk adalah sedusta-dustanya perkataan.” (HR. Bukhari 5143 dan Muslim 2563) 

 

if you ever been thinking or terdetik to put answer on things that doesn't flows normally like you ever seen before, just keep mum :) tak semua situation perlu lalu flow yang sama..tak semua benda perlu ikut perjalanan yang sama..

you never know the hidden story behind a small curve on someone's face :)

just put this in mind - a person is just like a tip of an iceberg..you only see the surface..not the whole things..so never make assumptions on anything..you never know what kind of life a person went through to stand where they stand today..you never know what kind of tests they had been through..

 

pernah dengar tak kisah pasal a Dr that unintentionally upsetting his patient? yanie attach sekali lagi story tu sebab for me its a good one :) 

 

A doctor was called one evening for an urgent surgery. He answered the call, changed his clothes,reached hospital in minutes & went directly to the surgery block. He found the boy's father waiting,in the hall for the doctor. On seeing him, the dad yelled,

 

"Why did U take all this time to come? Don't you know that my son's life is in danger? Don't youhave any sense of responsibility?" 

 

The doctor smiled & said: "I am sorry, I wasn't in the hospital & I came as fast as I could afterreceiving the call......And now, I wish you'd calm down so that I can do my work"

 

"Calm down?! What if your son was in this room right now,would you calm down? If your own son dies now what will you do??" said the father angrily.

 

The doctor smiled again & replied: "I will say what Quran say:"We come from Allah,and to him we will return". Doctors cannot prolong lives.Go & intercede for your son, we will do our best by God's grace"

 

"Giving advises when we're not concerned is so easy" Murmured the father.

 

The surgery took some hours after which the doctor went out happy, "Thank goodness!, your son is saved!"And without waiting for the father's reply he carried on his way running. 

 

"If you have any question, ask the nurse!!"

 

"Why is he so arrogant?He couldn't wait some minutes so that I ask about my son's state"

 

Commented the father when seeing the nurse minutes after the doctor left. The nurse answered,tears coming down her face,

"His son died yesterday in a road accident, he was in the burial when we called him for your son's surgery. And now that he saved your son's life, he left running to finish his son's burial. "

-end-

if you can't make someone happy, atleast don't add their burden..

tak semua orang nak bercerita kisah hidup dia dengan orang lain..and even if you have a friend yang always cerita anything to you pun, always borrow your shoulder to cry on pun, you can never said that you truly know that person..apa yang dia story to you mungkin just a tiny bit of what he/she had been through..and maybe it just to relief their feelings at that moment je..so you still have no right to tell anything or judge anything only based on that..

 

just, be a nice person :) close your mind from judging others..sebagaimana kamu tak suka orang lain question your life, your face, your rezeki, macam tu jugak orang lain :)

so, practice to be nice..to everyone :)

 

"Hai orang-orang yang beriman, jauhilah kebanyakan prasangka buruk (kecurigaan), karena sebagian dari prasangka buruk itu dosa. Dan janganlah sebagian kalian mencari-cari keburukan orang dan menggunjing satu sama lain. Adakah seorang di antara kamu yang suka memakan daging saudanya yang sudah mati? Maka tentulah kalian merasa jijik kepadanya. Dan bertakwalah kepada Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Penerima Taubat lagi Maha Penyayang." - Al-Hujurat:12

 

 xoxo,

yanie

everyone live in their own time frame

assalamualaikum w.b.t...

 

 

everyone living in their own time frame..

yes .

we are all living in our time frame..

jangan compare our life dengan orang lain..just live on your own pace..

 

"how you nak kejar pace, nak be mature seiring dengan those yang sebaya you kalau circle you tetap jugak tak moving?"

as someone yang be in this situation, i always get similar question..either direct or indirectly..i'm not actually 'left behind' like few people always said..i choose to be in this road of life.. i choose to still be a student even if umur dah nearly 30..i took diploma, degree, and another degree..one reason is coz i really love to study..and i really wanna achieve my dream..

 

but if people look generally, mungkin la few will said that i left far behind sebab my friends dah ramai yang ada stable job, become founder for certain products, getting married, have kids etc..while me still here - a student with unstable life, no own financial source ofcourse..

 

for me this thing is a choice..for everyone..and depends on how people look on life..ada orang plan to get married at 18, stable job at 20 etc..so lain orang lain perancangan masa depan dia..you cant say orang ni pilih salah, orang ni decide tak betul on their life..sebab dia lagi tahu life dia..and dia lagi tahu perancangan future dia..

 

lets just stop normalize that people need to be stable on everything by 25 can we?getting married before 25 etc..we already in the new era..stop normalizing that certain thing need to be done at certain age :) 

 

and stop saying "ohh dia takpela, parents kaya, takde kena tanggung adik-beradik etc etc"

as you never know which part of life yang dia let go for the decision that they made :) bukan semua orang lahir dalam guni beras..sekalipun dia memang lahir dalam keluarga yang mampu, thats not the point yang you boleh pick untuk question decision dia :)

 

for me, perspektif orang on life ni lain2..and i really appreciate my journey..i got so many valuable experiences sepanjang jalan hidup as student ni..i know a lot, and lagi appreciate what i learnt..

 

paling best is, i know how to appreciate people, and how to ignore people..bukan dari segi ignore sebab tak suka or nak palau dia..but by time you lagi tahu mana satu nak focus..so indirectly you will learn how to sort out life's business..ada benda perlu ambik tahu, ada benda perlu diam and move on :)

and everytime people talk about maturity, and question about others punya mature personality or thinking level, i would ask back 1st before i answer the question..

how do u define mature personality?

iff you define that only based on org tu tak boleh ada sifat childish langsung, tak boleh laugh to a silly things, tak boleh be noob on certain things, need to be serious all the time, then macamtu you wont see people as someone yang mature la..sebab you picture mature personality differently in your head..

 

everyone ada childish side dia..side yang dia tak serious sangat..side where they wanna do silly things..

 

so you cant simply said that if dia ni ada masa yang dia tak serious, then dia immature.. 

"so how do you keep the pace of matang-ness if your circle is at your brother's age?"

be flexible..ada masa you can be silly, laugh, funny, do stupid things..tapi ada masa you need to act like your age..or beyond..tengok situasi..bukan rule the world all the time..

and for me actually pengalaman tu pun dah cukup membantu untuk mematangkan..so indirectly you will be taught by life..

as for myself, bila waktu tak perlu serious, i will be so chill, silly sometimes, laughing, make jokes with my friends etc..but when they need me as someone 'older', when they ask me for serious opinion, then i will be there for them as a someone above their age but still at a level of a friend..

"how about maturity dari segi decision making, work life, pressure control and things yang luar dari norma student?"

this one if you ask me it depends on the individu tu sendiri..kalau you memang jenis yang susah adapt dengan life, still lagi dont know how to manage yourself, even you begin kerja umur 18 pun sampai kesudah you will be stress sebab banyak benda tak mampu handle..no matter in which level you are :)

yes, life outside campus tu jauh berbeza dengan life as student..tapi untuk basic2 things you should already know how to manage yourself..by learning too ofcourse..being in a circle dengan orang yang lagi muda than you doesnt means that you pun kena ikut jadi satu level dengan dia :) mana you tahu those yang circle yang umur dah tua2 tu mampu handle hidup dia? :)

im so grateful that even if my circle mostly those yang lagi muda but their personality varies..i no need to adjust myself so much..ada masa kita perlu jadi matured tapi ada masa kita kena tahu how to have some humor :)

serious all the time pun kelam jugak hidup nanti :D

this life is not a race..its a journey..enjoy the ride and scenery..jangan restrict pandangan untuk satu arah and jangan kusutkan kepala trying to handle things yang kita tak mampu :)

xoxo,

yanie

la tahla

assalamualaikum w.b.t...

 

this article i pernah share kat this blog waktu awal2 berjinak dengan blogging dulu..and pernah share kat website iluvislam jugak :) but today nak reshare again here :)

 

 

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"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." (Surah Al-Baqarah : 216)

 

Pernah tak kita terfikir – kenapa kepompong itu wujud? Kerana satu hari ia akan berubah menjadi rama-rama yang cantik! Kenapa malam itu gelap? Kerana dari dalam kegelapan itulah kita mampu nikmati indahnya bulan dan bintang. Dan kenapa kita diuji? Kerana ujian itu untuk meningkatkan lagi keimanan kepadaNya. Sabar adalah kunci terhebat dalam menghadapi setiap ujian. Jangan biarkan keluhan mengatasi kesabaran. Ketika seseorang hamba hanyut dalam keluhan, pancaindranya tidak mampu lagi memainkan peranan untuk melihat, mendengar, menghidu dan merasakan nikmat yang bertebaran yang diberikan oleh Allah Swt. 

 

“Dan, Allah mencintai orang-orang yang sabar”. (Ali Imran : 146)

 

Suatu hari, sedang seorang ayah membaca Al-Quran, datang si anak kepadanya sambil berkata “Oh ayah..sesungguhnya aku penat,” 

 

Ayahnya bertanya, “Apakah yang engkau keluhkan wahai anakku?”

 

“Aku penat. Penat dengan segalanya. Aku berusaha bermatian untuk mendapat markah terbaik, tetapi masih lagi aku tidak mendapatkannya. Seolah-olah semua usahaku sia-sia. Aku penat membantu ibu, sedangkan kawan-kawanku punyai pembantu rumah. Aku ingin pembantu rumah yang boleh mengemas rumah tanpa aku lakukan apa-apa. Aku penat menjaga tuturku, sedangkan ramai lagi orang lain yang terus menyakiti aku dengan lidahnya. Aku penat menjaga tingkahku, sedangkan orang lain tak pernah peduli dengan tingkah mereka yang kadangkala menyakitkan hati. Aku penat menahan diri dari semua perkara. Aku ingin jadi seperti orang lain, melakukan segalanya tanpa memikirkan apa pun,” tiba-tiba si anak menangis.

 

Si ayah tersenyum. Perlahan-lahan si ayah bangun dan mengelus lembut rambut anaknya. Diusap pipi yang mula disirami airmata itu.

 

“Wahai anakku, jangan menangis. Mari ayah tunjukkan sesuatu,” si ayah memimpin tangan anaknya. Dibawanya si anak melalui satu denai berliku, jalan yang penuh lopak, lumpur dan lalang. Di kiri dan kanan jalan itu penuh duri dan serangga berterbangan.

 

Anaknya mula hilang sabar, “Kita nak ke mana ayah? Jalan ini terlalu kotor dan tidak selesa. Badanku mula digigit serangga-serangga kecil,”

 

Si ayah hanya diam dan tersenyum. Diteruskan perjalanan tanpa sepatah kata. Tangannya masih erat menggenggam tangan si anak. Akhirnya, mereka berdua tiba di satu kawasan yang sangat indah. Ada bukit, sungai yang jernih airnya, kupu-kupu berterbangan, pohon yang rendang. Angin bertiup sepoi-sepoi bahasa. Cukup menenangkan. Si anak terpegun. Matanya tidak lekang dari mengagumi keindahan tempat itu.

 

“Tempat apa ni ayah? Cantik,” si ayah masih lagi diam dan mula duduk di perdu pepohon yang rendang tadi. Ditepuk lembut rumput di sebelahnya, tanda mahu si anak duduk di situ.

 

“Anakku, tahukah kamu mengapa tempat ini begitu sunyi walaupun ia begitu indah?”

 

“Tidak ayah. Mengapakah?”

 

“Itu kerana tak semua orang sanggup untuk melalui jalan yang kotor dan tidak selesa tadi. Padahal mereka tahu adanya tempat indah ini. Tak semua orang mampu untuk bersabar walaupun untuk seketika,”

 

“Ohh. Maksudnya kita tergolong antara mereka yang sabar ya, ayah?”

 

“Pandai anak ayah, akhirnya kamu faham,” kata si ayah sambil mencuit hidung anaknya.

 

“Faham? Maksudnya?”

 

“Anakku, dalam hidup kita, kita perlukan kesabaran yang tinggi. Kita perlukan kesabaran dalam setiap apa yang kita lakukan. Hidup ini penuh dengan ujian untuk menguji kesabaran kita, untuk meningkatkan keimanan kita, untuk kita beroleh kemenangan hakiki. Sama halnya dengan jalan tadi, penuh onak dan duri. Tapi hasilnya? Segalanya terbayar dengan keindahan yang kamu nikmati saat ini. Bayangkan jika kamu berputus asa dan tidak sabar untuk sedetik tadi, apa yang akan kamu dapat? Tiada, kan? Kerana itulah ayah selalu berpesan, bersabarlah,”

 

“Tapi ayah, sabar itu tak mudah,”

 

“Ya, ayah tahu. Sebab tu ayah pegang erat tangan kamu. Agar kamu sentiasa kuat. Kamu ada ayah dan ibu yang akan berada disamping kamu, ada sahabat yang Dia kirimkan sebagai penguat kamu, kerana seandainya kamu tergelincir, kami boleh membantu kamu bangun. Tapi ingatlah, tak selamanya kami mampu untuk berdiri seiring kamu. Sampai saatnya, kami harus pergi. Kamu harus mampu untuk berdiri sendiri. Kerana itulah ayah mahu kamu belajar untuk tidak menggantungkan hidup kamu dengan orang lain,”

 

Si anak kembali mula mengalirkan air mata. Sebak.

 

“Kerana itu jugalah, ayah mahu kamu menjadi diri sendiri. Jadilah pemuda muslim yang kuat, yang tetap tabah dan istiqamah dengan setiap ujian. Allah itu ada, dan akan sentiasa ada di samping kamu. Jika kamu yakin denganNya, kamu akan mampu terus melangkah walaupun ramai yang kecundang di tengah jalan, sehinggalah kamu sampai ke syurgaNya,”

 

“Ya ayah. Syurga itu lebih indah dari ini. Sekarang aku mengerti, dan aku akan terus bersabar demi syurgaNya. Terima kasih ayah,” lantas si anak memeluk ayahnya.

Everything will be okay at the end. So, if it is still not okay, means that it still not yet the end :)

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah)  dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan solat; dan sesungguhnya solat itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyu" (Surah Al-Baqarah : 45)

xoxo,

yanie

INGUINAL HERNIA (notes)

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

 

 

 

 

as i cannot sleep yet sebab nak study but not really focus enough..let me leave it here while revising..in case ada medical students or anyone yang tengah study and found this notes, moga bermanfaat :*

so, first thing first, what is hernia?

--> hernia is a protrusion of an organ or a part of the organ through the weak area of body's wall

basically, hernia consist of 3 parts - the sac, covering & contents

sac --> its a diverticulum of peritoneum that consist of mouth, neck, body, fundus

covering --> it derives from the layers of abdominal wall from which the sac pass through

contents --> can be varies - omentum (omentocele), intestine (enterocele), bladder/diverticulum/, ovary

what is the anatomical types of hernia? (ada 3...)

1) bubonocele --> the hernia remains in canal

2) funicular --> hernia pass through inguinal canal

3) complete --> when hernia enter the scrotum

what are the risk factors of inguinal hernia?

- chronic cough (such as pt w TB/ bronchiolitis/ etc)

- chronic constipation (due to increase in straining)

- any previous abdominal surgery (such as appendicectomy - sbb will weakend the abdominal wall)

- increase age

- smokers

- male (as male have small hole in the groin muscle that necessary for blood vessels to pass through to testicles)

- positive family history of hernia

what are the classifications of inguinal hernia?

1) reducible - when hernia can be reduce back into it's original site

2) irreducible - when hernia cannot be reduce back to it's original position

3) obstructed - usually associated with intestinal obstruction

4) strangulated - associated with pain & gangrene

5) occult - cannot be seen

***Lets get to know a bit about the anatomy (the important one related to IH)...***

 

1)what is inguinal canal?

-->it is an anoblique canal measuring about 3.75cm long & consist of 2 opening

 

2)what are the opening of inguinal canal?

-->deep inguinal ring - located 1.25cm above midpoint of inguinal ligament

-->superficial inguinal ring - located above & medial to pubic tubercle at external oblique aponeurosis (triangular shape)

 

3)what are the boundaries?

- anterior - aponeurosis at external oblique muscle, reinforce by internal oblique muscle laterally

- posterior - transversalis fascia laterally, conjoint tendon medially

- inferior - inguinal ligament, thickened medially by lacunar ligament

- superior - transversalis fascia, internal oblique, transversus abdominis

 

4)what are the Hesselbach's triangle border?

- medially: rectus abdominis muscle

- laterally: inferior epigastric vessels

- inferiorly: inguinal ligament

 

5)what are the content of inguinal canal?

-female : ileoinguinal nerve & round ligament

-male : ileoinguinal nerve & spermatic cord (kena tahu content spermatic cord too)

 

6)what is the difference of mid-inguinal point & midpoint of inguinal ligament?

- mid-inguinal point : location of femoral artery (in between ASIS & pubic symphisis)

- midpoint of inguinal ligament : location of deep inguinal ring (in between ASIS & pubic tubercle)

 

 

**Lets move on to HTPE**

 

in HT, what to ask?

 

1)name of pt

2)gender

3)age (sebab inguinal hernia in children usually caused by different cause than adult)

 

HOPI

1)about pain

  -how do you describe the pain? (usually pt will said it feels like dragging sensation/aching)

- it can be referred pain too

- tender/ painful might related to strangulated

2)about other sx

- any chronic coughing/ constipation?

- any strain during micturition?

- any previous surgery? trauma?

PE

- firstly, ask patient to stand up 

- do the 'can get above it' test to confirm that it is hernia****

 ---> hernia cannot get above

Inspection

- is it unilateral/ bilateral?

- is there any scar?

- any ulceration?

- how about the shape? pyriform (indirect)? oval (direct)?

- is there any skin changes?

- any positive cough impulse?

 

Palpation

- palpate for consistency --> soft, firm, hard

- do taxis test (reduction test) --> reducible/ irreducible

- do deep ring occlusion test*** --> is it bulge out (direct) or not bulge out (indirect)

 

 

***So, how to manage the pt?***

 

1) if the pt is child, the only procedure commonly done is herniotomy..why? because in children they not yet have the posterior wall

 

2) for adult:

-->herniorrhaphy<--

- this is a procedure of repairing tissue without putting mesh

- there's 3 types of herniorrhaphy --> basini, shouldice, mcvay/derning

- but the most common done nowadays is basini 

- but basini has high recurrence rate

 

-->hernioplasty<--

- repair procedure of posterior wall by filling the conjoined muscle & inguinal ligament using mesh

- there's 3 types of hernioplasty --> lichtenstein, gilbert, stoppa repair

- the most common one nowadays is lichtenstein (recurrence rate <1%)

 

 

 

#thats all setakat ni..if ada tambahan later me tambah again :)

 

xoxo, 

yanie

 

 

be nice to yourself; and be fair on a feeling

assalamualaikum w.b.t...

 

 

 

 

 

"is it unfair if kita rasa macam annoyed untuk certain thing yang orang buat kat kita?should we blame ourselves sebab rasa macamtu?rasa macam jahat sangat je nak rasa2 macamtu padahal dia ada je buat baik..cuma certain2 things je dia buat kita tak selesa.."

 

if you ask me, first thing first, be nice to yourself :)

semua orang ada hak untuk rasa suka or tak suka dengan orang lain..same goes to yourself.. you too, have your own person that you like and don't really comfortable with..tapi tak bermakna when you doesn't like that particular thing yang dia buat means that you memang tak suka dia kan..

so, be nice to yourself..jangan blame diri sendiri sebab tak suka sesuatu perkara tu..as example, kamu dah kawan lama dengan si A..tapi kamu tak suka cara dia bercakap kuat/ tak punctual/ selalu ignore orang lain..tapi on other side dia pun baik..so kamu rasa bersalah sebab kamu macam dah buruk sangka dengan orang tu..

no . don't feel like that..kamu ada hak untuk rasa macamtu..why? sebab kamu pun human..and kamu ada level patience, level preference yang berbeza dengan human yang lain..kamu ada rasa tak puas hati, rasa kenapalaa dia ni tak boleh punctual sikit etc..so don't blame yourself and feel that you are the worst person ever sebab rasa macamtu..

again, be kind to yourself too..jangan sebab kamu nak try to see everything nice on other person sampai you deny your own feelings..lepastu stress sorang2 sebab rasa diri sendiri yang salah..cannot macamtu..your mental health pun penting tahu..

 

to be positive all the time is okay..but not toxic positivity..embrace the facts that dunia ni tak sesempurna yang you expect it to be..and you can't deny the negative side of this world..semua benda ada positive and negative dia kan? same goes dengan your friends..tak semua sempurna..and you no need to feel bad sebab kamu tak dapat deny that negative thing about them..atleast kamu dah nampak banyak positive dia..and you never hate them as a person :* 

 

as long as you still know that someone tu still ada positive point about them then its okay..just don't be selfish by looking only on one side..look on both :)

 

.....................

 

same goes when we turn the table on other's perspektif pulak..we can't expect everyone to like us..mungkin among those yang kita consider rapat pun akan ada yang tak selesa or tak puas hati dengan kita..but they hide the words..

 

everyone have their own right on their feelings..being someone that you feel 'nice enough' doesn't means that you can't be disliked..

sometimes kita mungkin ask, "why am i so nice to others but others not doing the same for me"

tanpa sedar, we actually might only do the 'nice thing' in front of others dengan harapan orang lain pun do the same..but that's cannot be done..dont allow yourself to float dengan harapan yang orang lain akan do the same kindness that you did..mungkin ada orang tak suka pun that 'kindness'..so indirectly dia jadi tak selesa dengan kamu..

it's the other people's right either to like us or not..diorang pun mungkin ada expectation dorang on us yang mungkin kita tak mampu nak jadi..so bila at one point dia expect us to be like this but we be like that, we not gonna be in their favorite people list..

so be fair for them too..if dia tak suka you, then you turn your back and walk away on opposite side..we can't control perasaan orang lain..but we still can control ours..daripada be selfish to stay and hurt both feelings, lagi baik you walk away and know your worth :) tak kisahla in friendship ke, relationship ke..or any ship :)

"sesungguhnya bagi Rabbmu ada hak yang harus dipenuhi, bagi dirimu juga ada haknya, dan bagi keluargamu juga ada haknya, maka penuhilah masing-masing hak tersebut," - HR Bukhari

**me pun selalu je rasa bersalah bila kadang2 terasa dengan someone..but we align the feelings again dengan rational..perlu ke tak perlu rasa tu..ke kita je yang selfish..if benda tu memang overboard or takde common sense its okay to feel like that once a while :) just jangan menidakkan positive things before and after that feelings :)

**if you can change things to be better, change it..but if you can't change it, accept it 🤗

 

 

 xoxo,

yanie

reduce the unhappiness

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

just to share something yang bagi yanie interesting thing to do and akan make kita look forward on what tomorrow will bring to us.. i do this for few years already..and at least it works for me :)

before this ada yang tanya how do i make myself feel grateful everyday? macam susah sikit nak rasa grateful all the time tu..here i share a tips..

as for me, untuk buat me tak focus on negative things yang happen in a day, i try to highlight every single happy things yang happen in a day..dari yang sekecil2 rasa bebas untuk bernafas sebab no flu sampaila the biggest thing ever that might happen..

list out je semua good things yang happened, gulung/lipat and letak dalam jar..so that bila ada hari yang rasa macam extra teruk sikit nanti boleh tengok and be like "banyak dh benda baik yang berlaku sebelum ni..setakat this one apalah sangat"

so that we will look forward untuk hari2 mendatang :) apa lagi good things that He plan for me to happen agaknya..

 

and sometimes bila rasa macam satu hari tu serba tak kena, takde satu pun benda happy yang boleh nak naikkan semangat balik, me will bukak satu2 apa yang pernah ditulis and baca..

 

as a human tipula if cakap tak pernah rasa down langsung kan..but if we can find a way to focus on positive thing, why not? ^^

 

do it for 365 days..lepastu tukar balang baru :)

 

“Tak ada seorangpun kecuali dia akan mengalami kebahagiaan dan kesedihan akan tetapi jadikanlah kebahagiaan itu sebagai kesyukuran dan kesedihan sebagai kesabaran” 

- Tafsir Ibnu Katsir: 8/59; penerbit Dar Kutub Ilmiyah -

 

 

 

xoxo, 

yanie

please Allah, not people

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

 

 

Shaykh Azhar Nasser pernah cakap,

"If you knew how quickly people forget you after you die, you will stop spending your life trying to impress them"

 

sometimes in life kita sibuk concern on how people think of us, how people look on us, sampai kita lupa siapa kita di bumi fana ni..

 

cuba untuk a moment, muhasabah diri - luruskan balik niat dan tujuan hidup kita kat dunia..kita dilahirkan bukan untuk mengagumkan orang lain semata-mata..tapi yang paling utama is untuk berbakti pada Dia sebelum kita kembali..

 

memang la hablumminannas wa hablumminallah..maksudnya hubungan on either side is important..tapi if hubungan dengan manusia tu melalaikan kita, membuatkan kita tersasar dari landasan asal, why nak teruskan? get back on track..

 

rugi tu seketika je, berkat yang abadi tu yang kita cari..

 

apa guna kita impresskan orang, do everything we could to jaga our hubungan sesama manusia tapi mengabaikan hubungan kita dengan Dia..

 

hidup ni kejap je awak..kita singgah kejap je kat dunia..berapa kerat manusia sangat la yang kita mampu nak impressed..takde..

kamu try nak puaskan hati si A, si B tak suka..nak jadi macam yang si C nak, si D pulak tak suka..end up penat macam tu je..sebab setiap orang kat dunia ni ada benda yang dia suka, benda yang tak suka masing2..so sampai bila nak puaskan hati orang kan :)

 

jaga hubungan dengan Dia, insyaAllah hubungan kita dengan hamba-hambaNya yang lain pun akan terjaga :)

jangan penatkan diri kejar penghargaan manusia..sedangkan kita ada Dia yang kekal abadi :*

"Sesungguhnya barangsiapa yang mencari redha Allah sedangkan manusia murka, maka Allah akan cukupkan baginya akan segalanya di dunia ini; tetapi barangsiapa yang mencari keredhaan manusia dalam keadaan Allah murka, maka Allah akan menyerahkan nasibnya pada manusia.." - HR At-Tirmidzi

xoxo,

yanie

 

year 2 mbbs msu

assalamualaikum w.b.t...

-pic taken after Pro Exam 2-

after year 1, ofcourse la next masuk ke year 2 kan :D alhamdulillah..with a lot of tearss and money, you will be grateful just to be given opportunity to enter year 2 :D

lets get back to the topic..

macamana life year 2? 
year 2 lebih kurang year 1..the flow, the formats...but personally, i love year 2 more :)

side notes: for those yang rasa year 1 tu struggle, seksa, tak tahu if you choose the right course or not, and cried a lot, just cry dulu..you will see what future prepare for you soon <3

apa yang sama dengan year 1?

-->modules :)

SEM1:
-->Fundamental
-->Musculoskeletal (MSK)
-->Hemopoietic (Hemo)
-->Cardiovascular (CVS)
-->Respiratory (Respi)

SEM2:
-->Gastrointestinal (GIT)
-->Renal
-->Reproductive
-->Neuro (CNS)
-->Endocrine

-->Community Medicine

-each modules will be divided into 3 subjects..
-each subjects will content few topics and subtopics..

apa yang different?

-->subjects :)

year 1 ada Anatomy, Physiology, Biochemistry..

year 2 ada Pathology, Microbiology, Pharmacology..

Pathology - all about abnormal condition of the bodies..

Microbiology - all about bacteria, viruses, parasites.....

Pharmacology - all about drugs..

division dia tetap sama - macam fireworks..each subject will be divided into plus minus 200 topics :)

apa yang best in year 2?

-soalan ni depends individual jugak kot..as for me, i think lagi best sebab kita lagi tahu apa yang nak focus untuk study..so takdela nak kena tahu semua benda :) [lagipun untuk overall dah pernah hafal waktu year one kann :)]

-example, in year 2, division subtopics tu memang banyak..tapi kita akan tahu nak hafal macamana..contohnya under endocrine module(pathology)..subtopic dia about hyperthyroid/hypothyroid..so just hafal everything about that disease je..anatomy from year 1 just kaitkan dengan important things..contohnya location, blood supply..and why location n blood supply important to know in that disease :)

 

 
how to study?

-yang ni lain orang lain cara dia..my way of study mungkin tak sesuai dengan orang lain..same goes to other's way of study mungkin tak sesuai dengan me..

-contohnya, mostly ppl cakap study group is very important..but for me, yanie tak boleh absorb study group..i prefer to study sorg2, fahamkan dulu sendiri, cuba tengok buku or any other resource, dah faham nanti confirmkan with lecturer..later waktu study group yanie just dengar apa orang lain nak discuss je..if nak absorb untuk fahamkan waktu tu memang tak boleh..again, its depends on individual..so, find yours..jangan ikut orang :)

-most people love to study smart..tapi bagi yanie, myself perlu study hard jugak..i put study hard before study smart..sebab i think im comfortable that way :D

exams?

 -again..exam year 2 sama je dengan year 1..ada 5 division..

-->Progress Test 1
-->Semester 1
-->Progress Test 2
-->Semester 2
-->Professional Exam 2 (final & major one) 

division on each exam pun sama:

MCQ - 60minutes
MEQ1 - 20minutes
MEQ2 - 20minutes
SEQ - 20minutes
OSCE - 1-2hours
**but for Pro Exam SEQ ada dua :)

year 2 might be different from year 1 dari segi each and everyone's character etc..indirectly you will realize that :)

to be in medicine is tough..but believe me, you are tougher :) sama je dengan course lain..ada difficulty levels masing2..kita yang dalam medicine mungkin rasa our course dah susah..tapi orang lain in other course pun ada struggle mereka jugak..so dont underestimate anyone :)

with hard work and honesty, insyaAllah everything will goes well..doa banyak2 :)

after Pro Exam nanti boleh rehat puas2 before masuk year 3 :D

ohh btw batch kitorang semua pass untuk Pro Exam 2!i'm a proud batchmate :'D alhamdulillahh <3

**like always, if ada anything to ask boleh drop kat comment..insyaAllah nanti yanie reply mana yang termampu :)

xoxo,
yanie

resepi paruppu vadai

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

harini nak share resepi parappu vadai versi yanie 😘

**before that, sorry if ada indians that baca this blog and feel like 'ehh..ni not the real recipe!' 😅 this entry i just wanna share my way of making it..terlebih or terkurang nnt boleh share2 kat bawah 😘

bahan- bahan (for about 20biji - depends size)

- kacang dhal 250g

- bawang merah kecil (1biji) /holland (1/4)

- daun kari (1-2 tangkai)

- cili kering (2tangkai)

- cili burung hijau/merah (3tangkai)

- jintan manis/jintan putih (depends ada yg mana 😁)

- garam secukup rasa (yanie letak 1ts je)

cara-cara

1) rendam kacang dhal semalaman/ 5jam

2) toskan, asingkan satu cawan dhal, selebihnya blend..

3) potong bawang, cili, daun kari kecik-kecik..

4) tumbuk kasar jintan

5) mix everything

6) panaskan minyak

7) bentukkan campuran tadi jadi bentuk bulat2 leper (yanie pakai 2 sudu je, just golek2 in between the sudu)

8) masukkan dalam minyak panas (make sure minyak betul2 panas sebelum masukkan)

9) slowkan api, goreng sampai nampak kekuningan/ desired color..

10) siapp 😘

**senang kan ☺ nak tunggu rendam dhal tu je lambat sikit 😄 selamat mencuba!❤

xoxo,

yanie