assalamualaikum w.b.t...
-the day i learn to bring more spare clothes-
coming from medical, i kinda hoped that O&G would be my second posting..
and somehow,, it happened! ahaha
kenapa nak O&G as second posting?
tahla..maybe sebab masa tu still fresh kot
baru je masuk dunia kerja, tapi otak undergrad tu masih ada lagi..
clinical knowledge masih fresh, semangat pun masih fresh - cuma real experience je belum ada
and somehow, i thought that was the perfect time to enter O&G..
sebab kalau blur, kalau overwhelmed, kalau rasa macam tak okay…
"issokayy to not feel okay"
and somehow,, it happened! ahaha
kenapa nak O&G as second posting?
tahla..maybe sebab masa tu still fresh kot
baru je masuk dunia kerja, tapi otak undergrad tu masih ada lagi..
clinical knowledge masih fresh, semangat pun masih fresh - cuma real experience je belum ada
and somehow, i thought that was the perfect time to enter O&G..
sebab kalau blur, kalau overwhelmed, kalau rasa macam tak okay…
"issokayy to not feel okay"
baru second posting kan?
gitulah lebih kurang to husnuzon :D
---
day 1: welcome to O&G :D
day 1 dah kena pekik >.<
and nope, that was definitely not the end of it
“dikkk, cepat ambik trolley tu! patient nak czer!”
“apa yang tercegat kat situ..patient nak push dah, cepat sikit!”
“dah ARM belum?”
“dah VE belum? Siapa verify?”
“dikkk, fundal la betul-betulll!”
allahuu sabauu 😂
basically…
the adrenaline started on day 1
and somehow continued until the very last day
HAHA .
O&G was the kind of posting where one day could feel like three days
pagi masuk wad/ labour room rasa macam dah lama hidup dekat situ
tengok jam -
eh, baru pukul 10? :D
there was always something happening
someone contracting.
someone bleeding.
someone nak push.
someone nak czer.
someone's CTG suddenly tak cantik.
and somewhere in between all that…
"siapa VE pt ni tadi?"
"MTP activated!"
despite us macam lipas kudung kejap pegang form kejap pegang perut pt kejap VE kejap berlari kejap - ehh japp belum solat, belum makan, belum refer baby
:D
----
a posting full of hormones
if i had to describe O&G in three words:
Hormones. Emotions. Adrenaline.
lots and lots of adrenaline, and a bit lot more of hormones..haha
management dia sebenarnya, after some time, lebih kurang je untuk most patients..you will slowly start recognizing the pattern
despite us macam lipas kudung kejap pegang form kejap pegang perut pt kejap VE kejap berlari kejap - ehh japp belum solat, belum makan, belum refer baby
:D
----
a posting full of hormones
if i had to describe O&G in three words:
Hormones. Emotions. Adrenaline.
lots and lots of adrenaline, and a bit lot more of hormones..haha
management dia sebenarnya, after some time, lebih kurang je untuk most patients..you will slowly start recognizing the pattern
but O&G is also a posting yang full of medicolegal issues
everything needs to be documented.
everything needs to be timed.
everything needs to be communicated.
everything needs to be very, very clear.
so perhaps..., thats the reason of all the chaos feelings
patient ada hormones sendiri
doctors ada hormones sendiri
nurses and midwives pun ada hormones sendiri
mix allll those in one labour room -
✨ O&G ✨
heee. :D
--------
but beneath all the rushing, shouting, sleepless calls, CTGs, VEs, ARM, emergency C-sections and endless adrenaline...,
i actually collected quite a lot of bittersweet memories there..
ngl some days were exhausting..
some days made me question why i voluntarily wished for O&G as my second posting in the first place :D
as someone yang freshly graduated, dont be too harsh on yourself.. jangan expect diri sendiri to be perfect.. allow yourself to feel a little lost, but always willing to learn..
kadang VE tak tepat
kadang perineal guard loose
kadang fundal tak kuat
kadang suture tak cantik
kadang pt develop hematoma
kadang 3rd - 4th degree tear
kadang pt tak cooperative
everything can happen
allow some uneasy feelings to get through
you are not demanded to be perfect
atleast let yourself know that, even from yourself only; not from other people
some moments hurt
some gonna stayed with much longer than we expected
but there were always sweet memories too
“eh? ada sweet memories jugak?”
ofcourseee
mana-mana pun ada sweet memories
sometimes they don't simply happen
kita buat dia :D
-----
you don't necessarily get to choose whether a posting will be easy
you don't get to choose the people, the workload, the calls, or what kind of day is waiting for you behind those hospital doors
but somewhere between all the chaos, you still get to collect little moments that make the whole thing worth remembering..
between all the chaos and unknown, i met a lot of helpful seniors along the way..
seniors who taught, guided, corrected, and sometimes quietly made things a little easier when everything else felt overwhelming
O&G was stressful, no doubt..
there were days when the adrenaline never seemed to settle, and days when me felt like i was just trying to keep up..
but having people who were willing to teach and help made the journey a little less scary - and a lot more meaningful
maybe that's another thing housemanship slowly taught me:
an uneasy posting doesn't necessarily mean a bad journey..sometimes, the people you meet along the way make all the difference
and O&G?
it was loud.
it was tiring.
it was emotional.
it was chaotic.
it was very, very hormonal. :D
and somehow, despite everything,
im glad i was able to go through it
overall rate?
sebab i takminat o&g, the rate will not valid :p haha
hadap je..
oke je everything insyaAllah <3
rate: 3/5
xoxo,
yanie
mana-mana pun ada sweet memories
sometimes they don't simply happen
kita buat dia :D
-----
you don't necessarily get to choose whether a posting will be easy
you don't get to choose the people, the workload, the calls, or what kind of day is waiting for you behind those hospital doors
but somewhere between all the chaos, you still get to collect little moments that make the whole thing worth remembering..
between all the chaos and unknown, i met a lot of helpful seniors along the way..
seniors who taught, guided, corrected, and sometimes quietly made things a little easier when everything else felt overwhelming
O&G was stressful, no doubt..
there were days when the adrenaline never seemed to settle, and days when me felt like i was just trying to keep up..
but having people who were willing to teach and help made the journey a little less scary - and a lot more meaningful
maybe that's another thing housemanship slowly taught me:
an uneasy posting doesn't necessarily mean a bad journey..sometimes, the people you meet along the way make all the difference
and O&G?
it was loud.
it was tiring.
it was emotional.
it was chaotic.
it was very, very hormonal. :D
and somehow, despite everything,
im glad i was able to go through it
overall rate?
sebab i takminat o&g, the rate will not valid :p haha
hadap je..
oke je everything insyaAllah <3
rate: 3/5
xoxo,
yanie
No comments:
Post a Comment