the care

 assalamualaikum wbt...

as im doing my pt's report, and just talked to my parents..and suddenly the feelings came in again..

once in a while, i question myself - is this exactly what i wanna do? is this exactly what i chose before? this pathway?

the answer to that, always yes and no..

yes, as im living on what i chose..no as its not exactly what i aim for..still working on it tho..

being in healthcare system is something that i always wanted to..to provide care for others, to be able to understand others..and to be able at least on understanding what is the meaning behind every medical term and numbers..

but at another point, taking care others doesn't simultaneously work with taking care of your loved ones..

you working hard to take care of others..while under different roof, your loved ones only able to talk to you through phone calls..

"i love you"

"take care"

the only two words that you can always ensure give to them..everyday if you lucky enough..

is it really what we want?

everytime those thoughts coming through, i will just pray to Him to take care of my loved ones..everytime i see elderly, its silently shredded my heart..it reminds me of my parents as well..

im glad that im still blessed with time to call back home..to know that my parents doing well etc..but at certain time, i just feel helpless and useless..

may one day im able to be near to them, taking care of them from closer distance..

its not me only, i believe..every healthcare workers also feels the same..so, may Allah ease everything for every each of us..

xoxo,

yanie

after DMS, which one is better path?

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

been asked quite few times regarding this..

bukan taknak jawab, but the answer are so uncertain..it depends on how you adapt, how you think..but to give the ideas boleh la..

so, since after i habis DMS i continue both BMS and MBBS, maybe i can share a bit of my pov and opinion regarding this insyaAllah 

the question is - after DMS, mana satu lagi better (BMS ke MBBS)?

first thing first, do you enjoy study or not?

if the answer is yes, then we can proceed to the main answer..

but if your answer is no, and you rasa like DMS pun dah cukup menyeksakan, then you should consider to stop questioning..after DMS if you memang tak minat nak study any further, just proceed to seek for jobs..sebab both BMS and MBBS require lots of commitments..jangan seksa diri sendiri for another phase if you memang tak minat..

BMS or MBBS?

again, depends on your interest..

and need to consider the difference in study time too..

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BMS (3years; fees: around RM100k)

-if your minat more to research, nak jadi scientist, nak jadi researcher, you love to be in lab doing research, you love to do more research compare to wardworks but at the same time you nak ada attachment dengan ward-thingy, then choose BMS :)

why? - as when you dah ada aim to be a researcher, you nak develop something, you memang dah set your goal nak jadi scientist, then just proceed with the goal..no need to waste time dengan another 5 years bila you memang dah set betul2 you nak jadi researcher..

while working as researcher you can choose to sambung study as well..take master, phD while working..yang penting, back to basic - minat..

memang la orang cakap - oh, ambik mbbs pun boleh jadi researcher jugak, boleh jadi scientist jugak etc..

but if you memang dah ada goal dari awal, kenapa nak tambah study time for things yang uncertain..to take mbbs itself dah painful enough if you memang takde feel or memang tak enjoy langsung to be a doctor..kenapa nak seksa diri sendiri kan..

pros

- less study period

- no need to worry about paper sangkut2 (can finish by time)

- can work in office hour

- can further study while working (huge opportunity; minimum 1 year for master programme, depends on your choice - research/ courseworks)

- not working in wards

cons 

- in malaysia, the jobscope not really clear; but it also means that its huge

- you will not work in wards

MBBS (5years; fees: minimum RM300k)

- if you think that you more onto wardworks, you cannot stand being in the lab for longer period, tak minat sangat microscope, you lagi suka communicate with people, seeing sick people, doing wardworks, enjoy even kena kerja in hectic condition, can stand to accept people's emotion in whatever situation, then choose MBBS :)

why? - as if you cant stand being in lab for long period, you akan rasa terbeban to spend longer time doing research..if you tak kisah kena marah ke, study and works in ridiculous time, enjoy even in tiring time, then mbbs is for you..so that nanti you tak question why you choose medicine..if you rasa macam those stressful things as membebankan, jangan bazirkan masa ambik mbbs..its not worth it seriously..

medicine itself dah already long period of study..and waktu student pun you dah rasa the heavy-ness of the responsibility..so not everyone meant to take the path..you tak need the brain only..if you ambik only just because you have genius brain, kesian diri sendiri and patient nanti..

after all nak kerja with the title, nak taknak you memang nak kena undergo ho-ship..

if let say you dengar orang cakap - oh, tak buat ho-sip pun boleh je kerja, noworries..

then tak ke kesian diri sendiri, family, patients etc when you just like study for 5years alih2 at the end of the tunnel you macam masuk jalan yang sebenarnya you can cut-off time dari awal..

so kalau rasa macam - ahh takpela hadap jela 5years, taknak jadi Dr nnt i takyah la buat ho-ship..for me, its not that simple..fikir betul2..

pros:

- clear pathways

- work in wards, meeting people

cons:

- 5years is not short

- high pressure study and working (but its fine if you can adapt well)

- uncertain working duration

- longer further-study duration (minimum another 4years for specialist programme)

- need to worry about paper sangkut2 too during mbbs time

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other thing to consider is the financial thingy..both has hugeee difference in terms of fees..so kena consider very well before choose <3

yang penting, fikir masak2 before decide..jangan ambik just for the sake of nak sambung study semata2..jauh lagi perjalanan after dah habis study..so think wisely and dont waste your time on things yang tak pasti or painful for you :)

thats all for now..if theres anything to add nanti yanie add lagi..

if ada any other question just comment below..yanie check this blog everyday; and will reply asap insyaAllah <3

xoxo,

yanie