end of second journey

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

finally..after years of journey, the second journey end 🤍

12 years

its not a short period of time..but i still remember the moment when i began my first step into the journey..it was in early 2011 - after sketching a bit here and there of the path i chose to walk on, i told umiabah first..yes, im not making the decision alone by being selfish as some claim..im the one who choose the number..not that im being forced; but neither im forcing my ego..i know its gonna be a long roller coaster journey even before i step into my decision..its not only about the long journey, there will be a lot of sacrifices as well..so, umiabah should be the first to know and say yes..

"umiabah redha tak?"

and that yes, was the biggest thing that gave me strength till date 🤍 in whichever situation, whatever decision i make along the journey as well, no matter how small it seems, those blessings was my strength..as His blessings come with my umiabah's blessings..so that when things got hard and harder, i know i will always have Him, my parents, and my family behind my back..

"He never put u in a path that does not belongs to u"

theres always time that make u kneeled, make u feel like u cant walk anymore..the world seems to be collapsed before ur eyes..but by believing that He always there for u, every steps to get up and started walking again, feels less heavy insyaAllah..always put Him first before everything..talk to Him, ask Him to make it firm for u when ur mind seems miserable and confused..

thankyou Allah, for lending me the strength 🤍

thankyou umiabah, for all those doa 🤍

thankyou my family,  for always believing in me 🤍 

and thankyou my dear self as well, for enduring so much of everything that only He knew and make it till the end 🤍

not everyone need to know the whole story of what u going through..some stories better left untold..enough that He knows..

we all have our own stories..the future is never certain, but as we live in the presence, lets appreciate the moments and never lose faith..

for those who still struggling, believe that your time will come..have faith, you will get through it, insyaAllah

xoxo,

yanie

after PRO3 - what to do?

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

long time no seee..me enjoying so much of my time, ada plan nak menaip tapi kejap2 je datang mood tu..haha

so, after PRO3 - apa nak buat?

basically, banyak je boleh buat..depends your plan macamana..sini yanie list out what me and my friends mostly buat jela eh..

my friends ramai yang work after habis study..sementara tunggu result PRO3 keluar, ada yang start kerja, ada yang travel, ada yang duk rumah etc..

for me, sebab result tak keluar lagi, so i just duk rumah, appreciating the moments, belek2 notes (still) and doa banyak2..haha

sebab result tak keluar lagi, so macam scary sikit >.<

in between tu boleh study for preparation HO nanti..yes, jauh benar lagi perjalanan tu tapi sementara tak buat apa2 tu boleh la gilap2 sikit ilmu yang ada kann..

some of my friends start kerja..bab kerja ni tbh takde limitation pun..my friends work in varies kind of works..ada yang adi medical assistant, clinic assistant, salesperson, tourguide, cashier dan sebagainya..as long as you enjoy the work and tak overworked yourself, its okay..

and opinion regarding bekerja after habis exam ni pun lain orang lain pendapat dia..so again, depends on you..if you rasa you taknak kerja first, nak nikmati cuti, then you do you..bab ni boleh je gitu..as long as awak tak susahkan orang, just go on with yourself..

"nanti apa orang kata - tak kerja even dah habis study, jadi penganggur je"

tak perlu kisah pun apa dia nak kata tu..penat nanti dia diam la tu :D

conclusion is, bekerja or tak, it depends on you..and for me, i choose to tak kerja dulu..dah bertahun study kan..bagi la chance badan rehat sebelum start kerja hakiki..gituu

xoxo,

yanie

MBBS - berbaloi ke?

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

alhamdulillah..after 11years of study..akhirnya, habis juga satu fasa kehidupan..

alhamdulillah too, all of us pass our pro 3 exam 🤍

5 years to be honest tak lama, tapi tak sekejap..rasa sekejap sebab kita akan enjoy study, enjoy hospital life, enjoy student life..tapi akan terasa lama and panjang sebab ada exam in between.. (me bukan peminat exam :p)

berbalik kepada soalan - berbaloi ke ambik mbbs?

the answer is inside you :)

sebab aim orang lain2..ada yang aim for kerja, ada yang aim for experience, ada yang aim for marriage, etc..so, soal berbaloi ke tidak tu depends what your aim is..

for me - berbaloi..sebab my aim was untuk timba ilmu banyak2, do double degree, fulfill my bucket list..im not someone yang focus on kerja awal or early marriage..so, berbaloi la..

bukanla nak cakap yang me tak study to work..it just that me nak study dulu puas2 baru work..kerja tu memang la - sape nak bayar hutang nanti kan? :D

but, will i recommend mbbs to all students?

- not really :D

why?

- sebab this course not depends on result semata2..sebabtu ada iv before can enroll..

- even if u dah lulus iv, have genius brain, tak semestinya medicine for u too..

- what most important is - minat

- yess..above anything, u need to minat this course..if not everything will be sia2..5years alone is a longgg journey..tambah lagi dengan year foundation/ stpm/ diploma/ etc..so if u tak minat, jangan teruskan..

- if u only like this course sebab tengok movie, or sebab stigma (markah excellent ambik medic) then jangan..

how to know minat ke tak if belum enroll?

- read, ask, istikharah..sekarang zaman dah maju, teknologi dah banyak berkembang..there's a lot of source boleh baca or tengok to know a bit about the course before enroll..so tengok, baca, tanya dulu..then if still tak sure, istikharah 🤍 jangan la baca part best2 je..cuba search a bit deeper into the course too..

bukanlah nak discourage anyone out there not to take medicine or seumpamanya..but this field is far from drama..yang ada kt tv smua best2..realitinya, hard to swallow a bit if u ada mindset this course is cool, beautiful only..

so nanti if u memang tak minat or terpaksa ambik, the world gonna feel like sangat unfair to u and ur future patients..tak berbaloi nk sweat and tears for so long tapi in the end u regret sebab tak enjoy..

but if memang dah hadam tiny bit of future reality, then just go on 🤍

to enter this field might be hard,

but to stay is even harder 🤍

may He ease everything for those that still thinking about getting into this 🤍

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if nak tanya anything can ask below 🤗

xoxo,

yanie

entering year 5 - what to prepare

 assalamualaikum w.b.t...

masyaAllahh lamaa betul tak menulis sini..

long time no see..hee..so today kita sambung again my long-lost entry..dah lama tulis draft dia tapi tak sambung2 lagi..

for year 5, basically barang2 yang wajib ada tu barang sama macam yang kita ada dari year1/ year3

barang2 harus ada:

- stethoscope

- pentorch

- tendon hammer

- tuning fork

- ruler

- measuring tape (make sure pakai yang tailor tu je..jangan beli yang ada tempat picit2 auto gulung tu..nanti dalam exam kena tolak markah)

- micropore 

me sharing these ikut my experience - as a post-pandemic student..so macam a bit different from previous2 batch..

as usual, we all begin dengan theory class - hybrid..

before kita go one by one, let me list out all the postings in year 5 (in msu)..

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year 5 ada 6 postings..

1) Orthopaedic

2) Emergency Medicine

3) Surgery

4) Internal Medicine

5) O&G

6) Paediatrics

sequence dia macam biasa - ikut batch..actually waktu our time tu dah slowly back to square dah..cuma ada tempat restricted, ada tempat can pergi..

so we were divided into 2 groups (A&B)

each group ada 22 students..and each group will go to different posting..means at one time akan ada one group jela kat satu2 posting tu..i was in group B (so rotation dia was as above)

strictness at the hospital, depends department..

1) Orthopaedic (4weeks)

- this posting was a good start..most probably easy start..it just macam terkejut sikit sebab dah lama tak ke hospital kan..

- apa je boleh buat kat hospital? - anything..as long as under supervision..so depends diri sendiri jugak..be proactive, ask to help etc insyaAllah dipermudahkan..

- all the staff kat this department very helpful..tak garang2 sangat..and semua membantu (a lot)

- kalau nak kata must-bring item ke hospital tu macam takde sangat..tendon hammer jela..tapi kat ward pun ada..so, bawa diri and brain je kot..tapi me and my friend bawak je stethoscope..dia macam habit..but we are usually on 'lucky side' sometimes..we did CPR kat ortho ward..which was rarely happened..so, bawak steth..

- BST format macam biasa jela (present case)

--> stress level: ***

2)Emergency Medicine (4weeks)

- this one was my most favorite posting! banyakkkkk sangat belajar kat posting ni..kat sini betul kena bawak steth :D sebab all the time pakai..

- tapi, format dia tak sama dengan lain2 posting..kt ED ada je temporary ward..but patient tukar2..so untuk BST usually ambik patient yang baru sampai..

- means kalau kat posting lain boleh ambik any patient sebab possibility patient tu ada kat ward by the time presenting case tu tinggi..kat ED cannot..cari case on the day of your turn untuk present cases tu..ambik from any zone takpe (nak selamat ambik red or yellow zone)..but not psych cases..bukan tak boleh, just not preferable.. 

- nak buat apa je kat ED? - seriously, banyakkkk sangat boleh buat kt ED..berbaik la dengan MA, and rajin2 la oncall..me slalu oncall waktu kat ED..by tengah malam patient makin ramai..so banyak la pengalaman sikit..

- stress level: **

3)Surgery (8weeks - tapi jadi 10 sebab ada 2weeks cuti)

- to be honest, if your rotation same with mine, bila masuk surgery dia jadi shock a bit..sebab dari ortho and ed, both macam leisure(?) posting..so bila masuk surgery jadi strict..for me la..tapi not in a bad way pun..

- kat surgery, depends sebenarnya you nak masuk ot ke tak..sebab kadang yang sempat masuk pun ELOT..nanti jadi lamaaa btul duk dalam tu (up to 12H)..kat ward pun dah boleh buat macam2, study macam2 dah..

- takde banyak sangat pun kena bawak kat surgery (but stethoscope is a must as student)

- stress level: ***

4)Internal Medicine (8weeks)

- this one, as how it was famous on, the most nervewrecking one..dia macam, you dont know what yu dont know or should know but you must know..but dont worry, you will get through it too <3

- stethoscope, neurokit, tendon hammer, bawak je smua..semua pakai nanti

overall stress level: *****

5)O&G (4weeks)

- this one, full of hormones..tak tau macamana nak explain..tapi dapat rasa la tegang tu..mungkin sebab dia banyak medicolegal punya cases kot so macam everyone must be very discipline..

- but so far yang me jumpa semua baik2 and sangat membantu alhamdulillah <3

- things to bring - pinard, steth, ruler, measuring tape

overall stress level: ****

6)Paediatrics (4weeks)

- this one, depends..if minat budak2 so this posting is for you..as for me, im not into budak2 sangat so macam, just go with the flow jela..

- tapi its fun..sebab boleh bagi toys kat budak2 tu..and borak dengan paeds patient kadang lagi mengisi jiwa <3

- things to bring - toyssssssssssss, steth

stress level: ****

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if ada anything yanie boleh tambah later yanie tambah..if anyone ada soalan sila2 la comment kat bawah..insyaAllah yanie reply :)

xoxo,

yanie

the care

 assalamualaikum wbt...

as im doing my pt's report, and just talked to my parents..and suddenly the feelings came in again..

once in a while, i question myself - is this exactly what i wanna do? is this exactly what i chose before? this pathway?

the answer to that, always yes and no..

yes, as im living on what i chose..no as its not exactly what i aim for..still working on it tho..

being in healthcare system is something that i always wanted to..to provide care for others, to be able to understand others..and to be able at least on understanding what is the meaning behind every medical term and numbers..

but at another point, taking care others doesn't simultaneously work with taking care of your loved ones..

you working hard to take care of others..while under different roof, your loved ones only able to talk to you through phone calls..

"i love you"

"take care"

the only two words that you can always ensure give to them..everyday if you lucky enough..

is it really what we want?

everytime those thoughts coming through, i will just pray to Him to take care of my loved ones..everytime i see elderly, its silently shredded my heart..it reminds me of my parents as well..

im glad that im still blessed with time to call back home..to know that my parents doing well etc..but at certain time, i just feel helpless and useless..

may one day im able to be near to them, taking care of them from closer distance..

its not me only, i believe..every healthcare workers also feels the same..so, may Allah ease everything for every each of us..

xoxo,

yanie